Wondering Night.....Day 5

Interesting how this day turned out.  Long days and long nights are part of the life.  Working to prepare the scenario required much thought and arrangement.  Its amazing what people think they can get away with these days.  The entitlement and the righteousness that spills over to being so unbelievably arrogant.  I guess I didn't realize how much of that was out there.  That will not deter the effort being put into the selection I have made.  It seems selfish to many, however in focusing on the purpose behind who I am and the satisfaction I receive in fulfilling that incredible thirst, I don't regret and I will not be sorry.  The taste is almost indescribable, but it also leans toward a richness that many wouldn't know how to appreciate it. 

"Everyone knows the phenomenon of trying to hold your breath underwater - how at first it's alright and you can handle it, and then as it gets closer and closer to the time when you must breathe, how urgent the need becomes, the lust and the hunger to breathe. And then the panic sets in when you begin to think that you won't be able to breathe - and finally, when you take in air and the anxiety subsides...that's what it's like to be a vampire and need blood." ~ Francis Ford Coppola's journal

Complications.....Day 3

...Honestly, I've always hated planning parties, especially when I happen to be the one at the center of attention.  Even though, my guests are dedicated to the evening and ceremony surrounding the celebration, I am often times disgusted at the effort and the energy one must put into making sure all the appropriate settings are in place, the attire is impeccable, the decorations and lighting and the ambiance is perfect.  At the end however, it is always worth it though.  I've always treasured my birthday.  Many of my friends and acquaintances don't seem to understand the importance around this.  Regardless of the fact that age and getting older are no longer relevant for many of us, surviving another year and being able to be me are what I look forward to.  I can only hope that my reluctant guests can eventually appreciate the nature of their participation to quench the craving of their precious gift to me...