Exquisite Simplicity.....Day 8

You've forgotten me already I know, but you will never forget the experience.  This goes deeper and farther than most can conceive.  You're grasping to regain what you have lost, but you are unsure of where you have been and what you have truly seen.  There are no words that will further edify this situation to make it better or to encourage your survival.  Hunting without weapons and reaping the gift you have given are not for everyone.  The species is vanishing and taking with it the utopia that once existed daily back in earlier times.

What one would do to step through the spectrum to truly see how things were, are, and could be? Supernatural and unspoken goes the thundering shudders to the being that once was. How piercing desires can be causing the blade to leave a tattoo of the separation that is embraced unknowingly.  Reflections are now empty and no more...close your eyes...

Wondering Night.....Day 5

Interesting how this day turned out.  Long days and long nights are part of the life.  Working to prepare the scenario required much thought and arrangement.  Its amazing what people think they can get away with these days.  The entitlement and the righteousness that spills over to being so unbelievably arrogant.  I guess I didn't realize how much of that was out there.  That will not deter the effort being put into the selection I have made.  It seems selfish to many, however in focusing on the purpose behind who I am and the satisfaction I receive in fulfilling that incredible thirst, I don't regret and I will not be sorry.  The taste is almost indescribable, but it also leans toward a richness that many wouldn't know how to appreciate it. 

"Everyone knows the phenomenon of trying to hold your breath underwater - how at first it's alright and you can handle it, and then as it gets closer and closer to the time when you must breathe, how urgent the need becomes, the lust and the hunger to breathe. And then the panic sets in when you begin to think that you won't be able to breathe - and finally, when you take in air and the anxiety subsides...that's what it's like to be a vampire and need blood." ~ Francis Ford Coppola's journal

Desirable Expression.....Day 2

...I'm sooo tired.  So unusual to hear that I'm sure, but the screaming was relentless.  Normally I wouldn't complain, it's a most enjoyable background noise to a lovely evening at home before the games begin, but not in this case.  The sob stories started the moment they realized their destiny and then proceeded as they became rather annoying with excuse after excuse after excuse.  I know, I could have chosen to change the outcome; however, I decided to endure and let the emotional display continue.  I did not want to distract them from their inevitable future by making it easier for them so the screaming was allowed.  Next time, a different thought process will be employed that will make the preparatory stages flow for a more ecstatic and desirable personal elucidation.

And so it begins.....Day 1

...where do I start?  I've been thinking about this for quite awhile.  The time taken to research, identify, test, and confirm the certain choice one has to make.  Why, does someone have to do this due diligence?  I'm not just anybody, and I take the process very seriously.  Ask anyone who knows me.., excuse me, who "knew" me, and they would have told you, that they were in awe of what they saw and what they experienced.  Nothing like it anywhere, anytime, or ever before.  I'm meticulous with the details and the nature of my vision.  Others have done less, been more dramatic, and created larger scenes.  I prefer in the quiet of my own mansion, and in my own space, with my own tools and surroundings.  I hope you understand, this will take some time, and I will not divulge sooner the pleasures that will be shared.  Please let me go now...I can hardly stand it...will you wait for me?